Little Busters!

This is going to sound weird coming from me, a J-Urban lover, but I would listen to L'Arc~en~Ciel's album, AWAKE, for the rest of my life. I love every single song on that album, and HYDE's soulful voice hypnotize's me. I want to marry his voice, which is impossible. I'm going to explain why I enjoy each track of the album:

1. New World - It was like an old skool rock vibe to it. I feel like I want to get up and dance whenever I listen to it.
2. Lost Heaven - One of my favorite tracks on the album. I love the vocals, and the accoustic parts are awesome!
3. Poem - I love the vocals and the message of this song! Beautiful sound.
4. Trust - One of my favorite tracks! I love vocals and the accoustic parts!
5. Killing Me - I love the fast beat, and the lyrics!
6. As One - One of my favorite tracks. I love the dark beat, and the chorus is fun to sing to!
7. My Dear - One of my favorite tracks! It has a J-pop vibe, but the vocals and lyrics are so pretty.
8. Existence - Another one of my favorite tracks! Fun to sing to, and it makes you want to dance!
9. Invitation to Freedom (Jiyu no e Shotai) - Has a J-poppish and J-Rock vibe! It's a feel good song, and I like the message!
10. Ophelia - My favorite track off this album! It's really accoustic! I love dancing to this song, and Hyde's vocals are sexy!!!!
11. Starry Sky (Hoshizora) - I love the accoustic parts on this song, and the message of the song is nice.
12. Twinkle, Twinkle - My 2nd favorite track off this album! It has an old school vibe to it. The song makes me think of Summer and the beach for some reason! This song makes me happy!

I don't know why I am the way that I am. I just am, me, I guess.

I hate loving someone that I know I shouldn't be loving. I mean, she has never given me a reason not to love her, but she's never shown any interest or anything. I mean, if someone asked me to explain why, it'd make sense, but eh. Whatever.

I need to feel this amazing feeling with someone closer, someone I can make something with. I need to find that asian girl someday soon so I can love again. I feel so empty.

All these empty promises of a call back, of a text back. I never give them my facebook or accept their requests. Not that i'm mister popular or suave or anything. This is like 3-4 girls. Not every girl I meet. I don't want there to be any type of mis understanding.

I just wish I could tell her. I wish I could tell her without being so frozen up or shy. Or scared of rejection. Or whatever. She has a boyfriend too, and that's one of my rule. No girls with boyfriends. But i can't help it. I think she's the most beautiful girl I've ever seen in my life.. Like, literally. I've always thought that about her. Since the day I saw her.

But whatever. I'm just being a sap. I'm being a creeper. I'm being me.

The emptiness is filling up with more sadness and more emptiness. I can't seem to figure out what to say or who to say it to anymore.

I don't even hurt anymore. I don't get sad about Deanna or Hanna or anything. I'm just absolutely in love with this girl. I just want her to feel it back so bad. I've never wanted anything so much in my life. I'd give her my all. I'd find a way to make it work.. Maybe someday, I'll find her. Maybe someday, I'll be able to hold her in my arms.

Until that day, I'll keep sitting on the sidelines, daydreaming about what I wish was.

Guess I talked about it on Tinier Me but not here. I had an interview yesterday. At first I thought it went rather well but today I think I might of hurt my chances. They kept asking questions that were hypothetical situations at my previous place of employment. My previous place of employment was a factory. You don't have things like customer service in a factory.

I should of forced the conversation towards when I was the president of a club. Where I had to deal with people and had a lot of duties. I might call back and ask for a time to talk with them again.

But only after my Mother's birthday. I send out a card a couple of days ago but I fear it might be a day late (read: I have no faith in the U.S.P.S). If the weather is nice I might visit (and return her dishes).

Helped Father with mowing the yard today. We took breaks and talked about things. Some okay, others not so much.

It appears I shouldn't relay my discussions with tsubomi either.

In other news I have been... unsatisfied with my phone company. Their customer service to be more precise. When I was told to voice my concerns by using up my minutes I got fed up. Sent them an email today. They called me, still my minutes but w/e, and told me that they'll talk to the boss of the manager of the place I'm unhappy with because, yes, 30-40 minute waits for service are apparently unacceptable. Win.

Насколько я понимаю, Google Wave - сервис для мозгового штурма и коллективной работы над проектами. Поэтому мне не совсем ясно, в чем смысл регистрироваться ради "потыкать" в одиночку. Ну или не в одиночку, но просто потыкать, не имея в виду ничего конкретного.

Отсюда, наверно, и разочарованность - "ну вот, а говорили, новая технология, которая изменит мир... а такая фигня, да еще и от Google".

The fact that this hooked me into checking a mail I don't really check anymore due to not playing the game.



Vocaloid, what have you done to me. orz


Edit: Ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............

SO. I HAVE TICKETS TO WATCH UTADA IN CONCERT WHEN SHE COMES TO THE UNITED KINGDOM.

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This probably means that I have to listen to her two English albums again, oh lord. I stayed away from her second English album after I found out that she ruined Senjou no Merry Christmas/Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence.



Chardonnay. She's sipping chardonnay and damn right, she's letting em know because she's like Captain Picard. Utada as Captain Picard.

I think the only appropriate image at this point is:


But that aside, I've always wanted to see Utada live so this is tres exciting!

Это ужасно и является воплощением кровавой невозможности, но, похоже, Eclipse исправился с тех пор, как я его оценивала последний раз (лет 5 назад). Даже на моем слабеньком по нынешним меркам лэптопе наблюдаю вполне удовлетворительное время реакции интерфейса. Ну и наличие PyDev тоже радует...

(Хотя не совсем понимаю, почему Alt-BkSp не работает как Undo.)

Judging from two news stories today, clearly the American Medical Association are a bunch of traitorous, liberally-biased, commie bastards that hate Jesus.

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TOWA TEI - BIG FUN
COMA-CHI - RED NAKED
wyolica - Balcony
COLOR - WHITE～Lovers on canvas～
miray(miray × HOTTIE CAT) - Summer for Life
DJ Deckstream - Deckstream Soundtracks:2
Thelma Aoyama(青山 テルマ) - LOVE!～THELMA LOVESONG COLLECTION～
Lil'B - 今、キミへ・・・
faith - faithful BEST
Jazztronik - Jazztronik Works
DOMINO - JK riot!!!
FIRE BALL - Don't Look Back
JAMOSA - RED
twenty4-7 - PROGRESS
SoulJa - COLORZ
J Soul Brothers - J Soul Brothers
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http://ocjapanfair.com/

Info:

The Japanese and Japanese American based in Orange County has been increasing steadily in recent years. By introducing Japanese Food and Culture through this event, we intend to deepen mutual understanding and friendship to General American community.

My personal Quote:

“I am so excited to know that the OC Japan Fair is coming. I hope that everyone will enjoy the fair and experience all there is to see in Japanese culture. I am looking forward to performing and hopefully entertaining the audience.”

Drummer Rin-chan is coming all the way from Japan to perform for her first time in the US! Polo & Yoichi of NIRF will also be rocking out with Miss Stephanie Yanez. We are all looking forward to it!

Show @5:00PM ~J-Pop Song by Stephanie Yanez - J-POP ｿﾝｸﾞ by Stephanie Yanez

No matter what, love, trust, and believe.

I would tell my Seishirou-san.

The sweet honey trickling past my lips,
the very poison that paralyses my being, you are.
Yet again the refreshing air that suffocates me.
So simple yet at the same time so complex.
When joy is pain and tears are medals of dishonour I wear shamefully across my breast.
Your words scream to me although you whisper. Your fingers strangle me although you rest.
The love in which I learn to hate and the hatred I've learned to loathe is you.
My dearest beloved,
words fail me more than you have me.
Those blessed wings have become my chains, grounding me when all I wanted was to fly with you.
Perhaps my voice is far too timid.
Perhaps my worth is far too few.
I thank you for helping me find myself after being lost in a mist of uncertainty and fear.
I thank you for granting me courage when all I held was an empty soul.
But we have served our purposes in life and fate has decreed it so.
With a heavy heart, I close this chapter of ours and I read aloud,
"The end".

***

No rhythm, no metering but all imagery and meanings laced into the single thought that has been running through my mind.

It has been a hectic week, an ongoing rollercoaster which I now have to slam the brakes on. I don't expect him to miss me. I don't expect him to search for me. I don't expect him to care about the reasons. Things are as they are and I simply had to put my foot down.

I've been far more patient than the rest and by now, my reserves have run out. Could he top it up? I'm afraid not... the offer has expired.

We are not the first and we won't be the last. We wanted to pay our respects. And while we had a show at the anime con AKI-CON in Everett, WA. We of course had to stop by Kurt Cobain's last home in Seattle. Viretta Park is to the side of the house. And many Kurt Cobain & Nirvana fans have visited the park calling it KURT'S PARK. At the park is a bench where people have written messages on it about and to Kurt.

I still remember the news and when he was announced dead...

Kurt's music will live on.

NO COPYRIGHT INFRINGEMENT INTENDED!

Zenkaikon: Fission Mailed. Oh well, I'll try again next year. Note to self: Pre-reg may be a necessity. The trip out there wasn't a complete waste, I turned it into a MicroCenter/Lego/Cheesecake Factory run at the last minute.

Yeah, I'm not too thrilled. Payed them a visit yesterday (forgot it was Sunday). Got a lot of questions answered. Best part of it was getting there 10 minutes before close and out 30 minutes after they closed. And I was next in line for getting help. They suck that bad. At least when I got help it was an Alltel transplant. All my Alltel stuff got grandfathered over but for all intents and purposes I'm Verizon now. They warned me that they're going to try to integrate me into the fold but I can keep paying for this current plan for as long as I want. But I'll probably look into a plan that allows texting when I try to get a new phone. That won't be for a while though.

Related to that somewhat, the new Droid looks interesting.

Other than that it's been great. We've had unusually good weather (66deg F yesterday AT NIGHT). Dinner was Noodles & Company. Picked up an in house made rice crispy treat there and it was gooooooood. Best $1.50 I've spent in a long time. Don't worry, the size of the thing justified the price, and then some. Oh, the food was good too, haha. I had mushroom stroganoff with beef and tsubomi, the awesome girl she is, had a trio of curry soup, curry, and shrimp. It was filling and under $20 for the two of us.

tsubomi has simply been wonderful the past few days as well. As good as things have been she just makes them better. ^_~

I just reread the email from my future advisor about our meeting Saturday morning, and he didn't ssay "research something", he said "prepare something academic to discuss". That's kind of a relief.

Some posters (3).. There's Tsuruya (sp?), Mikuru, Yuki, and Haruhi. :3 They are pin up types, so yeah, bathing suits.

(Click the fake cut!)

Thanks for looking! Also, first post, so apologies if I messed up anywhere! ;o;

I can't keep doing this damage to myself..

Drinking and sleeping with random girls I never talk to again is bad. I'm not even bragging about it because it's not even who I am.

I've already gained a ton of weight back seeing as I havn't been to the gym or running in almost a month. Also eating like I'll never see fast food or fatty shit for the rest of my life didn't help.

My confidence is down. I need to get back on track and get things together.

I have to stop drinking and fucking nasty girls. I need to save myself for the one.

I'm happy being alone. I just hate being lonely. I want to have that special someone laying with me tonight. I don't know..

PART TWO! Won't be as massive as part one was, haha. I HAD TO FILL YOU IN ON THE BACKSTORY LAST TIME, YOU SEE. Anyway, I don't know how fair it is to put this in with the rest since the Nong Shim hot and spicy noodles are one of the two starter favourites I began this with, but, hey, in the interests of completeness. Maybe I'll do the Mama pork and black pepper ones too FOR THE MEMORIES AND FOR POSTERITY. I still have four or five packets of them left, it's fine, I'll be fine.

Anyway, it seems every time I go to WaiYeeHong, these ones are always in their bestsellers list (always #2 to these ones being #1, oddly... I'm pretty sure I picked some of those up from the uni shop last year sometime when I was visiting Amanda and her boyfriend swore by them but I wasn't so impressed? Of course, it might be same type/different flavour, I don't remember). There are several different types of Nong Shim hot and spicy, though these different types are essentially "in a packet", "in a cup" or "in a bowl". I used to get the cup ones for a while I think, but the packet ones are easiest since I always put my noodles in bowls anyway. The big bowl is probably pretty awesome though, I should try that sometime~.

( GREAT BIG NOODLE REVIEW 02!!!!!!!! )