Little Busters!

So, guess who's Blackberry was in the car the entire time?

Yeah.

Give me a character I RP and I'll tell you:
01. Full name
02. Best friend
03. Sexuality
04. Favorite color
05. Relationship status
06. Ideal mate
07. Turn-ons
08. Last sexual experience
09. Favorite food
10. Crushes
11. Favorite music
12. Biggest fear
13. Biggest fantasy
14. Quirks in bed
15. Bad habits
16. Biggest regret
17. Best kept secrets
18. Last thought
19. Worst sexual/romantic experience
20. Biggest insecurity

And of course, the muselist.

Well I got my wisdom teeth done this morning... and it was piece of cake, really :D;; They did have to jab me twice with the IV, but that was nothing compared to how bad it was when I got the colonoscopy. My veins kept collapsing and they had to do it eight times ;-; So, that was my biggest worry, actually.

I took everyone's advice and popped in the pain meds before the numbness wore off, and I think that really helped. All I feel is a bit of discomfort, but no worse than that "I just bit my cheek and it's kinda throbby" sensation. Oh, and feeling a bit out of it and loopy. But in a good way, lol. I still have my hydrocodone and now I have some oxycodone, too. OH LEGAL DRUGS♥

Sarah's around to take care of me, too :'D

Thanks so much to everyone who commented... I was really really freaked. The worst part is always the waiting, so I'm glad I got it done asap (well, I kinda had to, but still).

Some of our Orlando friends are coming to visit for a couple days (Josie, her friend Chris, Kat, Willie, and Iris) so that'll be a nice distraction if the pain decides to kick my butt tomorrow or something.

I love you guys. It really does help to hear other peoples' honest experiences. ♥♥♥

Now back to gummin' on some Jell-o, lol.

Just paid $1000 to a creditor to get that shit paid off and done with. UGH. IT HURT.

But. BUT BUT BUT. It's going on my credit as a good mark? Something like that. Paid in full. Which is a good mark. Or something like that.

And I'm getting paid tomorrow, so no big deal.

I've got my savings though. That's my savings for my house. I'm going to buy my next place.

For now, I've gotta focus on not getting any fatter [ugh], and saving my money more and making it work for me. oh, and not going to jail.

I'm happy right now though. I'm finding myself becoming stronger everyday.

ps. I felt like an idiot, I thought I found Diana on Facebook, and it was some other random spanish chick. She thinks I'm super weird. lol.

Diana is such a cute and sweet girl.

I'm guessing before, when me and her talked on the phone, she was nervous or something. It's almost like night and day.

I'm happy with how this is going.

Going to go clean my room and ignore the texts from the girl from NYC. I can't keep up with that, and I don't want to hurt her or myself. Eh. I'm actually hurting about that. I really liked her.

I've been living in Manhattan for almost 6 months now. Guess it's about time to say what that's like.


First, my job is good. I was initially disappointed at how many "administrative" duties I have; I'm basically running the lab while other people are making the important research decisions. However, such decisions don't need to be made on a daily basis, and what I do everyday at work isn't any less exciting or important than what the other members of my lab are doing. In fact, I've learned that research in general is rather slow-going and boring. Even the lab director, who doesn't have to personally run subjects in an experiment every other day, has to sit around and wait while we do it. It takes months to get reliable results for just one experiment, an experiment which will ultimately answer only a piece of some neuroscientific question. So in a nutshell, work is interesting and challenging at times, but it is also more low-key than I would like, and it makes me wonder if I wouldn't find life as a researcher a little understimulating.

The "meat and potatoes" of my life right now is, as it was with JET, the extracurriculars. I have many hobbies, and I decided before I moved to NY that life in the big city would give me the opportunity to really focus on one or two of them - something which I've never really done as I've always been more of a breadth than depth sort of guy. The hobbies I was considering getting deeper into were martial arts, dancing, and ultimate. But martial arts in the city is expensive and inconvenient (considering I would want to continue Jeet Kune Do), and I'm sort of injured and cannot play ultimate right now, so as a matter of coincidence I have found myself directing my energies toward dancing.

This is the first time I've lived in a place with a good swing scene, and it is fantastic. There are great dances I could go to 5 or 6 nights a week, and many weeks I go to at least 2 or 3 of them. I'm improving so much quicker than I ever did, and making lots of friends. On Facebook recently I added a friend I knew from dancing and noticed that we had something like 46 friends in common - all people that I've met through dancing since moving here! Oh, and one of the girls I mentioned in my previous entry? Now we're dating! ;)

Of course, I am continuing some of my other hobbies. I've been ice skating a couple of times this season, and plan to go snowboarding as well. And every time I play Rock Band now, people say that I should play drums for real... and I'm seriously considering starting. Not that I need another expensive, time-consuming hobby, but... it's just so fun!

As far as the city itself is concerned, New York is alright. After the efficiency of Japan's subways, some things about the metro here are pretty ridiculous. Also, everything here is expensive, and nature is not in great abundance. But, there's plenty to do and it's not to hard to get the things I need. The pattern people follow of living in cities while they're young and then moving away later in life seems to make a lot of sense. But I'm not thinking too far ahead. The idea right now is to enjoy what I have while I have it.

So first post of the new year/decade. I've had this thing for like... 6 years now?

Anyway, heading back to austin on Saturday. Classes start on tuesday... and end on thursday. This is awesome. I also making it a habit to head out to try to see The Irresponsible Voltron every week, if not twice a month since I won't have classes on friday. (Which is nothing new it's the whole monday and wednesday thing I'm excited about.)

This depends on how you define "HORRIFIC", because there is a difference between Nickelback and "insert name of generic shitty rapper here." They're both FUCKING HORRIFIC but at least one of them I could probably learn to live with.

Long answer short though... Probably not. (read as "NO")

Jump in the urinal and stand on your head - I'm the one that's alive, you're all dead.

AHHH EMERGENCY!!

WHO HAS HAD THEIR WISDOM TEETH REMOVED

BECAUSE ALL OF THE SUDDEN I NEED THAT DONE IMMEDIATELY

SO EXPERIENCES??? IDC ABOUT RANDOM GOOGLE SEARCHES I NEED REASSURANCE FROM FRIENDS

I am such a baby lol

but halp plz

✩K-ON! x 12 (Yui's t-shirts, Yui) + Yui .gifs x 02
✩Hetalia x 29
✩Misc. x 27

Preview:


Here at my journal ★

So...Diana is opening up to me more and more. I'm starting to really like her again. She is kind of dorky and shit like Sydney. She told me how she loves wii. I assumed she didn't. That made me fall in love, and I told her that, half joking. But she liked it. So she texts me a lot more. It makes me happy.

Things are moving so slow now a days. I fucked up my first resolution and told Deanna I missed her like crazy. And I'm not lying about that. I do. I fucking still love the girl. But what can I do about it? Nothing. I'll just have to find a new way to cover up that feeling. She wouldn't ever love me again like that. She's got so many more people to have that emotion with. I'm not even a blip on her radar.

Nicole said "Hey" in a text. I might just fuck her tonight. I don't know. No more sugar coating anything.

I need something to make me forget, and I'm not a drug addict, and I hate drinking alone. So why not fuck my way out of depression? I won't. I know I won't. My journal just became pathetic.

GQ (of all places) delivers the best and most accurate beatdown of Ayn Rand I have ever read.

I don't even know if people are actually going to do this, but my friend was doing it and it really seems like a fun idea~
IC anon meme

1. Characters tag in with their journals (canon characters, AUs, OCs, whatever).
2. Other characters tag them back anonymously.
3. ???
4. lulz are had

Every day I wake up and think I'm feeling better and then I do something that let's me know that, no, I'm not. It's frustrating. I can't do things how I'm used to or how I want to (like sit down ffs).

Because of this I can't be with my Father as he talks with his doctor today. So that's another downer.

And the few times I'm on the computer I realize just how out of the loop I really am - in some places (I never knew vorrt went down to Texas, until recently, and that was because of facebook).

Working on yet another set in Monster Hunter. Going to farm up bits to put together a Mix Success Rate +45%, Alchemy, Shot Mix set. And I'm doing every single quest at least once. And I agree with thegreatoni. Panning for goldenfish sucks. 35 minutes to complete just because the goldenfish won't spawn? Yay random number generators. But I got three different goldenfish quests done last night (mainly because I made a fishing set just for that purpose, well, and to catch speartuna and a couple other fish I need for the aforementioned set).

That was my biggest paragraph... Yes, I play that way too much on the couch. I'd like to be playing, of all things, The Final Fantasy Adventure 1 & 2 on my Gameboy, but I can't find either the games or an older Gameboy that'll play them.

His eyes glow bright yellow
Under the chair in the dark room
Gently, he snags your pant leg with his claws
Seeking his next meal

I'm no Houdini but disappearing does make me feel better. With disappearing, I mean to get away from here.

It's something I have always been addicted to and coming home would be THE most depressing feeling. Of course I'm pretty sure it has almost everything to do with the lack of responsibilities and no chains nor shackles. Abroad on holiday, I was me and everything I imagined myself to be~

I've decided to make the seven wonders of the world my life goal for now. It all started with the Great Wall of China in Beijing last year in August and very soon I'll be in the presence of the awe-inspiring Taj Mahal in India. In the pipeline is the Eiffel Tower in Paris for 2011 especially since Arni's being posted there and recently offered her place for me to stay while I'm there.

My editor just informed me that my leave from the 14th to the 28th has just been approved which means I need to really start stuffing the next couple of week's worth of the education supplement while I'm away. Crossing my fingers that HR doesn't step in to take it back. Otherwise I WILL throw the biggest and hissiest fits ever known to man!

A while ago, I asked two of my friends on youtube, if they'd like to do a collab with Air TV, Kanon 2006, and Clannad. One of my friends had the idea of also using the two movies for Air and Clannad to include, as well as two members, to make it into a mini MEP. The MEP isn't done just yet. There are 3 more parts that need to be made, but I thought I'd show a preview of it, by showing my part, with Clannad and Clannad After Story.

The song is Naraku no Hana (Flower of Hana) from the anime opening Higurashi no Naku Koro Ni Kai. I promise there's no blood or gore in the MEP though XD Unless you count the blood that might possibly show up in Air with the Princess arc...but that said, I hope you enjoy, and if anyone enjoys this part, I will definitely make sure to show the entire MEP on here ^_^

( Sounai bashou de )

Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh.

Lack of affection and smothering sucks.

I'm still talking to Diana a bit, but Goddamn I wish I had someone special right now.

Deanna's comment on my twitter kind of hurt for some reason. I know she was just mad, but there's always truth in everything. She said I was not even a spec of dust in her memory. "Booohooo" right? I read it and was like "Wow. She's so much more than that to me, even though she was so horrible for me". I don't know. I always thought that at least with her I was someone special.

I don't feel special to anyone at all. I feel like a spec of dust. I'm really fucking down on myself today. Reading that was definitely not what I wanted.

Time to hurt myself a little more.

That's what they call them here and although I'm not the type to actively hunt them out, young boys are the lifeblood of the gay community. They make it go round... especially with creepy old predators just waiting to pounce on them and do anything to parade them around town like a pretty piece off arm candy. Mind you, I'm not planning to start evolving into anything similar!

It's been over five dates now and it has been an interesting time. However, I was hoping that maybe he'd be the type who could be mature. I ended up with the youngest child of 13... -_-; Already that can't possibly bid very well.

So far he's had me on a crazy exercising torture... Of course, nobody expects a 20-year old to suddenly develop some awesome hobby like bungee jumping. But it has been hiking, running and swimming lately. That's the most exercise I've done in 6 months combined most likely! And this morning I made a promise to do two rounds of Tasek Lama, which I managed without collapsing. Give me another week and I might just be able to do three.

The whole seeing each other almost every day is starting to get to me though. Not the type to go down very well with the emotional chains and shackles, it is starting to feel a bit claustrophobic. I love my space and I need it... To constantly have it filled with just one person is simply too much to ask.

Plus, the real test is being able to cope with the cocktail of my schedule, friends and travel. So right now, he's merely an option...

First post of the new year!

Usually New Year's Eve/Day is my favorite holiday; alas this year I rang in the new year all alone (well, my cat was there, and the dog was asleep somewhere in the same house). As usual, there are so many things I could write on: Christmas (not too much excitement there, though I got some nice presents, such as a boxset of A&E/BBC miniseries), work, visits, work, new year's resolutions, work ... you get the idea. Instead I think I'll do a meme, courtesy of yaminokaitou.
( This past year )